As long as I can remember it was in the back of my mind. I just thought of myself as having adhd but I never talked about it. As a kid I struggled in school and had so much energy I was described by my family as “a tornado”. When I became a teenager I started developing issues that I didn’t understand and it made life more difficult. But within the last year after researching on the internet, I found out that basically every issue I had was tied in one way or another to adhd. So a few months ago I started working towards a diagnosis.
Still deciding what to do 😬
I really struggled in school. I had trouble paying attention, and I didn’t have much motivation to do well. My biggest issue was that no matter how much I read the same page over and over I just couldn’t comprehend what I was reading.
My amount of energy and inability to stay still. I would climb walls, run around everywhere and dance all the time, even when there was no music playing. I hated sitting still, even when I went to bed and was falling asleep I couldn’t stay still, I tossed and turned so much that I annoyed anyone I shared a room with.
Once the process started it was very easy, I had a very understanding and validating team of therapists and psychologists. I first asked about an ADHD testing in November of 2021. I received my diagnosis just last month in the middle of April.
I was so scared of being wrong so when I was waiting for the results I just convinced myself I probably didn’t have ADHD. I was sure I did the test too well to have ADHD 😂
✨ If you are wondering too if you have ADHD, check out my Free ADHD Test✨
I felt relieved, like I could finally understand myself. Part of me though was sad for me as a child, I grew up thinking something was wrong with me and I beat myself up for not being like everyone else. I just had my first therapy session back after my diagnosis so I still have a lot to learn.
I’m happy to have my diagnosis so that I can move forward and be more understanding of myself and learn how to manage my ADHD.
I think I did as a kid, but as an adult I’ve learned to mask.
Daily responsibilities like doing the dishes or laundry are hard for me to start doing or even remember that I’m supposed to do. I’m also struggling to find a job that won’t be too much for me, I have a very hard time working.
When I hyperfixate on something it’s amazing what I can get done. It almost feels like a super power. When I’m motivated I can also be very creative.
Definitely. I’m learning to be more patient with myself and I’ve already become so much more productive after sticking to the routines suggested by my therapist.
I probably would have been able to do better at school which would have given me a lot more confidence and self worth. But I’m ok with the way my life turned out.
I haven’t told everyone in my life yet, but my sister has been one of my biggest supporters. She’s been very understanding and compassionate towards me. I had been talking to her through the whole journey, and she wasn’t surprised when I told her my diagnosis
I have severe anxiety and an unspecified depressive disorder. I’m also suspected to have bpd but I’m not officially diagnosed with that.
Every day. I haven’t figured out quite how to handle it yet. My husband does a lot to help me feel calm.
Not many knew about me seeking a diagnosis, but the few who did know didn’t make me doubt at all.
Yes, I’m always second guessing myself.
Since my diagnosis is very recent my life is still changing. So far I’ve set up routines for myself so that I can be productive. I’ve also set aside time for things that improve my mood, like going on walks or doing my nails.
I think each person has to decide what’s best for them. Personally medication has been life changing, I feel like I’m able to function so much better.
Probably my medication.
You don’t need a diagnosis to start feeling better. Be patient with yourself and research what can help you manage ADHD.
💕 Would you like to share your ADHD Story too ? Apply now by completing this form 💕